Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Really dont care

So I was able to see first hand how uncivilised and crazy my soon to be ex husbands family really is this last weekend. What mother in law stalks their daughter in laws house to see when she gets there, and then when she arrives presumes to start a fight with her and her family that was with her?? Well that would be my soon to be ex mother in law. I mean i always knew that his family was dysfunctional. but that that just proved it. I am honestly so happy that i will not be considered part of that family any longer.

To top it off my ex (obviously after talking to his mom and hearing her side of the story) sends me an email, saying how he heard Sat night got heated, and that he knows that i left new mexico earlier than what i originally said, and that he had lost all trust in me.UM REALLY?! im sorry but couldn't help but laugh at that email for a number of reasons...
1. I'm getting a divorce from this man...I didn't know i was a prisoner and i had to have permission from him on when i was able to leave to start moving on with my new life.
2. I didn't know i had to run it by his parents on what i was doing..i mean i thought this was mine and his divorce...
3.who cheated on who?? oh right he did..yet he lost all trust in me??
4.His mother went psycho on my family and I. My family and I kept our composure.So still not sure how its my fault?...

You know though. I think about the events that went down that night, and everything that his family and him have done to me in the past...and, I can take a huge sign of relief that it is over, and no longer will him or his family have control over me, and I can start living independently, and build back the confidence I once had in myself.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

New beginning

So as it can be seen that i have changed the title to my blog..It is because I am getting a divorce from my husband,and i will no longer be a PROUD military spouse. I had found out when my husband deployed, that he wanted to be a little greedy and mess around with a female there behind my back. Its not like im that suprised by it all, cause its not the first time he has done something like this to me. His last depoyment before we got married, he strayed and i ended up forgiving him. We were working on it and, just when i thought things were going great and we were on the right track in our relationship. He gets another deployment, and shatters any trust that i might have started to gain back for him. But you live and you learn from things like this, and even though it hurts to be betrayed the way i did. I know that I will pick myself up from this, and meet someone who will treat me the way i deserve to be treated. I look at this as a new beginning for me to start over. That is why i decided to change the title to New Beginnings (thought it was suitable).So now my blogs will be of a different story, ones that are happy and worth talking about. It will be about my new Journey of going through this divorce and hopefully finding myself again as a person, and moving on from this experience. :)